Dear diary, I am afraid

Last month I finished reading May Cause Miracles by Gabrielle Bernstein; in this book she has daily exercises that are suppose to move you closer to mental and spiritual clarity. Out of all the exercise’s I was told to write down, one stood out to me.

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This particular exercise asked that I list five ways I've projected fear onto my life, and next to it I was to write the “love” responses to each of my fears.

But let me go back, before I go forward (some of my friends will get this) The other day I was going through my journal and I came across the above entry, and later while taking a bath I got this urge that I had to share it with you. 

I procrastinated for a while, (in fact I wrote this entry weeks ago) and almost talked myself out of it because these were my own personal, very personal thoughts,. The kind of thoughts I only share in my diary or with my husband. But I then  realized that if this meant this much to me, then I was definitely suppose to share. I will give you my example so that you have a guideline for when you do it yourself. My hope is that you do this exercise and that you can clearly identify your fears, but more importantly that you move past them. So here it goes (exhale).

Top five ways I've projected fear onto my life:  

                               

Dear Diary,

1. I am afraid I am not good enough                                    
2. I am afraid I will never be successful
3. I am afraid of making decisions I will later regret       
4. I am afraid of not having money
5. I am afraid I will never be satisfied

Love Response:

1. I am brilliant, made perfectly in God’s image, created to follow my heart’s desire. I am perfect just as I am.
2. I will achieve the very thing I strive for.
3. Follow your heart; regret nothing for every choice I make will teach me a valuable lesson.
4. I have more than enough, I have and always will be able to provide for my family.
5. Be happy today with everything I have, in every single moment. Striving for more does not mean dissatisfaction. Be grateful always, no matter how small. 

Focusing on the love responses instead of the fears will allow me to move forward in life, allowing for only the best results to enter my life. I have carried those worries far too long, and they have led me nowhere. So go on, write down your fears for a last time and leave them there on the page. But more importantly write down the love responses, and carry those feelings with you for the rest of your life.

 

Till next time

Free yourself!

I have finally done it. I have freed myself from the prison I had placed myself in . I blogged about this a few weeks ago and little did I know how guilty I was of the very thing I was preaching about. 

Have you ever done something that you really don’t like just because you think you should do it, or because it looks cool, or it sounds cool? I’m sure you have. Most of us think this type of behavior ends with our teen years, but I’m afraid that this is not the case, some of us carry this burden way into our adult years.. However, if you happen to be one of the few people that does only what feels right, and you never ever do anything just because you’re trying to be someone you’re not, then CONGRATULATIONS you are way ahead of me.

This brings me to my point. For about a year now I’ve been trying to be something I’m not.  People, I’ve been trying to become a runner. I thought it would be cool to participate in Disney’s marathon events and run 5K’s and so on and so on, but the truth is I HATE running, always have.

Now let’s put this into perspective, I once said that the mere fact that you “want” to do something means that you’re supposed to do it. But, what must follow this statement is that this “want” has to be for the right reason and come from the purest place. I “wanted” to be a runner, but not because it brought me joy or it fulfilled me in any way, but because I wanted to have that title, “I’m a runner,” “I run marathons,” “I’m an athlete.” It was more about the status that came with it than what I really wanted in my heart. See the difference? I hope so.

So I am happy to say that I have finally let myself off the hook about this running thing. There are other things I really enjoy, like yoga, and not because I’ll be part of some elite group, but because I really do enjoy it. So, a very wise person recently told me, “Commit to yoga then, set goals, attain them and set new ones. You will succeed at the thing you enjoy!” And so I shall!

Now it’s your turn, what are you forcing onto your life that really doesn’t fit you? Once you discover what it is, do as I did and take it off.  Be only who you want to be, not who you think you should be. 

Till Next Time!