However, I am so emotionally vested in the show that I lose control of my feelings. I get really mad when something doesn't go the way I want, OR really sad when something terrible happens (semi spoiler alert). So tonight while watching the show I had a knot in my throat from holding back the tears. I kept reminding myself that this wasn't real, it's just a show. But all along I just wanted to burst-out into tears.
So it got me thinking, what is it about T.V. that gets us so hooked.
Honestly I have no idea.. lol. All I know is that I get completely obsessed with these drama shows to where it consumes my days.
Anyway, I did come up with a conclusion though. Today was the first day I actually did everything I've been wanting to do. I wrote, I exercised, I meditated, I relaxed and watched TV, AND I wrote in my journal. And, I feel AMAZING... Even though I sat in front of the TV for 3 hours (watching TVD and Idol) I still managed to do everything I needed/wanted to do. My point is that sometimes we stop ourselves from doing the things we enjoy because we may feel guilty, i.e wasting time in front of the television, or eating a cookie (wink-wink) but sometimes when we let all the guilt go, when we just let ourselves enjoy the moment we're in, we get more things accomplished than when we deny ourselves simple pleasures.
So I encourage you to do this, for the next few days try your best to do the things you enjoy and see if this brings you a little more peace in other areas you may be struggling with. I bet if you eat now the "one" cookie you're dying for, you won't eat "five" later. For me, it was relaxing, once I relaxed and allowed myself to just chill then the stress of having to get something down on paper didn't seem so stressful.
So go ahead feel free to do whatever you want!